My Post Baby Bathing Suit Body

I wore a bathing suit for the first time in a long time today. We are on a family trip and I didn’t even bother to pack my bikini because I am so use to being on the sideline with my four month old. After the guys spent two hours in the pool yesterday I realized I wouldn’t get to spend much time with them if I wasn’t willing to get a little wet. So today I went to an overpriced tourist swim shop and purchased a bathing suit. I was pressed for time and they didn’t have a lot in my size so this is what I got. It’s not the most flattering but it covers my ass and that is what I needed.

When I put it on, my kids were so happy. My four year old told me that I looked fancy. Which made me feel special. We went to the beach and I actually got in the water!

I am writing this as a recommitment to myself to do what I want to do and wear what I feel comfortable in. It seems like an obvious thing to do but even I allow my body to limit my activities. So I am happy to say that I’m off the sideline and in the game wearing my not so flattering bathing suit, but my team doesn’t care so I am ok with it.

MyPostBaby Bikini Body?


After I had my first born I remember thinking that I would never be able to wear a bikini again. I was ok with it. I love one pieces and was ok with that being a small sacrifice for such a huge gain, my beautiful baby boy. 

After I had my second however, I couldn’t imagine any type of water sportswear that would look flattering on me. I actually already had a control top one piece from before I even had kids that I had ordered from one of my mom’s catalogues not knowing that it was that style but post-baby I had too much to “control”. So I decided to buy a bikini. I looked online and had a few false starts but found one I was comfortable with on JCrew.com. While I have worn it to the pool at my apartment complex wearing it to the beach for the first time was a big step for me. And even though, I have pictures of myself in my underwear on this very site that I have shared on social media, stepping in public felt way more challenging. 

I did it and realized that it was no big deal. No one cared. Everyone is just having fun at the beach. I also observed that while some women were covered up, the men at the beach bared their skin without hesitation. These are all societal norms that we are all familiar with so I won’t bore you with how this is just one example out of millions of gender iniquity in our society but I will say, the sun felt so good on my belly!