My Post Baby Body Journey – 1 Month Postpartum

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1 Month Postpartum

My mind: At times I feel like I have lost it. While physically I’m feeling about 85% back to where I was before I was pregnant, mentally I haven’t been feeling myself. I’ve been having hella mood swings and my husband is having a hard time dealing with them. It’s like I lost the ability to bite my tongue and all the little things that I usually let go, I just don’t. Before I can stop myself, I hear things come out of my mouth that I usually keep to myself and I’m very unapologetic about it which leads to some unpleasant exchanges. There’s also the tears. I cry for no reason and a whole bunch of reasons at the same time. I’ll be reading something or thinking about something and the tears will just come out of my eyes. It’s frustrating not feeling like myself. I have always been someone who needs to keep busy to be happy, sitting idle just allows my mind to go to wild places so being on maternity leave without work to stimulate me while also being too tired to really work on any projects any way is difficult. The weather is becoming more spring like however, so that should help me get out more and raise those serotonin levels.

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1 Month Postpartum

My body: The soreness is pretty much gone. My pelvic floor is back in action and I even did a 3 mile hike! I am no longer reliant on pain medication to get me through the day and night. Woohoo! My stomach has gone down a lot but I wouldn’t be surprised if it stops shrinking, this might just be how my body is from now until who knows? I should mention for about a week I would wake up in the middle of the night with a crazy throbbing headache. These headaches were the worst headaches I have every experienced in my life. I’m not being dramatic when I say that I thought I was dying, that’s just how bad that they were. They went away with some pain medicine and my doctor told me that they could be caused by sleep deprivation, but ruled out any relation the headaches could have had to my epidural because they didn’t feel better when I would lay down. I guess epidural related headaches feel better when one lays down (fun fact). I think I was just dehydrated and sleep deprived. I started focusing more on drinking water and sleeping and they went away. My boobs still hurt from time to time because breastfeeding causes a lot of things to happen to one’s boobs.

My soul: I’m just hella tired. My soul is tired. Still overwhelmed with love for my family just feeling a bit low sometimes as I mentioned before.

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1 Month Postpartum

 

My Post Baby Body Journey- 11 Days Postpartum

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11 days postpartum

My mind: I have my good moments and my low moments. Sometimes the idea of going outside with a newborn is overwhelming but I know that staying in the house all day every day is bad for my mental health. My husband made me go for a walk around the block the other day which was nice and much appreciated. Still feeling anxious about him going back to work. I’m also feeling overwhelmed by my house. So much cleaning, so little time, so little energy.

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11 days postpartum

My body: Where do I begin? There’s been a lot going on! Well first off, my milk came in like crazy. Maxwell spent a day feeding and after that my boobs were uncomfortably humongous for days. I couldn’t even hug my kids which made me a little sad. In addition to that, breastfeeding has been hella painful. While the cramping had subsided, each feeding felt like he was biting my nipple. I used all the techniques my lactation nurse taught me but they weren’t working so I we went in for an appointment and was told that Maxwell was tongue tied. So it didn’t just feel like he was biting my nipple he literally was biting my nipple. Ouch!

Moving on, my pelvic floor is done. It hurts to crawl, I can hardly stand up in the morning, I can’t sit up without using my arms to support me, I can’t even lift my legs too far off the ground and I have to sleep with a huge pillow between my legs or else I’ll feel an unbearable pain in my groin area. Like they say, there is no rest for the weary. Now for my neck, it hurts badly and it is super stiff. I thought it might be from sleeping crazy because I fall asleep in all different positions these days but it turns out I hurt is breastfeeding. My little one is so cute I like to watch him while he eats and that has been straining my neck. The cure to all my pain issues, as prescribed by my doctor, has been heat and pain medicine. I don’t like taking pills but I am super unpleasant when I’m in pain and my family deserves to have the best version of me even while I’m healing. I’m starting to get my energy back, got to dance with my boys to some MJ today so that definitely makes taking some pills worth it.

My soul: I don’t know how my soul feels. I guess I need to do some soul searching…

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11 days postpartum

 

My Post Baby Body Journey- 1 Day Postpartum

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1 Day Postpartum

My Mind: Trying to figure out how this being a mom of three thing is going to work out, especially in my current physical state. The boys both seem hella germy but of course are in love with their baby brother so they want to touch all over him and be in his face. How do I get them to keep their distance without fostering jealousy or resentment? What the hell am I going to do when my husband goes back to work?

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Believe it or not, there is no baby in there!

My Body: As demonstrated by my photo, I don’t look too different from how I did when I was pregnant, lol. I’m ok with that considering I’m only one day postpartum. I’m also too focused on healing, taking care of my new baby and acclimating my family to our new addition to be concerned with my appearance. I’m in a lot of pain. Everything hurts. I had an epidural so my back is sore and my feet and hands are swollen. Breastfeeding is going well although it comes with extremely painful contractions. I was told that since this was my third child that my uterus is extra stretchy so it has more contracting to do to get back to where it was pre-baby. Lucky me! I have a lot of love and support around me though so I’m able to get some rest and take some pain killers.

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1 Day Postpartum

My Soul: Elated. I love this new life so much and I am so happy to be surrounded by so much love and support from my family and friends.