“I again had to find the power to look at myself and say, “its ok”.

My whole life I had dealt with body issues. Not necessarily in terms of being overweight, but I just never felt that my body was ever the norm and conformed to societies standards. When I hit puberty I started getting my curves and wasn’t ashamed of them at all because I finally got boobs which I’ve always wanted.

“But I knew I was creating something so amazing that my appearance didn’t matter at all to me.”

Let’s move forward to when I met my future husband/baby daddy. I was in the best shape I have ever been. I was strong, curvy and lean in the right places. I got pregnant 8 months after we started dating and my body immediately started changing. But I knew I was creating something so amazing that my appearance didn’t matter at all to me. Once I had my daughter I was 30 pounds overweight, not terrible for just having a baby but since I was never thin to begin with I was carrying some serious pounds that I wasn’t used to. Again I was ok with how I looked because my main focus was being a new mother to my amazing new baby. It wasn’t until my husband proposed that I started “shedding for the wedding”. I got my body back and I was good to go! Then 4 months after the wedding I got pregnant again with my son, gained 45 pounds and started getting many pains in my body. I again had to find the power to look at myself and say “its ok”.

“I love my stretch marks…”

Starting 2016 I was going to get back on track with my weight loss. Now I’m down 35 pounds and have never felt better! Also having both my babies I have my fair amount of stretch marks, but in truth I’m not bothered by them. I look at my stretch marks and think of them as battle scars and I was a soldier in pregnancy combat! LOL! I have emotionally been through ups and downs with my post baby body which I assume every woman who has had child(ren) knows how I feel. But the love and support I received from my amazing husband and children I wouldn’t change for anything in the world!